November 6th, 2008

dying open


First of all, I want to say that I am glad this election season is over. I took two days off this week to be able to let go of it, essentially, and clear my head.

I knew Obama would win, I just didn't know by how much: Turns out, it was by a landslide of electoral votes and by the popular vote. This is refreshing on many levels, but for me what makes this victory so sweet is that it happened without a court room's choice, or any other election nightmares. Clean and sweet, by all accounts.

I was very happy with McCain's concession speech; the respect it demanded was commendable. I'm glad he put that message out, although I guess it was expected.

The crowd at McCain's concession speech site, however, basically illustrates the tone I've had such a problem with through this entire race. When McCain asked his supporters to accept the new president-elect, they booed. The anger along the way from this group has been very unsettling, and it's been non-stop; I don't understand it, either. The problem with anger of this type is that it is contagious, and works it's way into all things. It attempted to pollute Obama's campaign over the entire duration of this election, and although it ultimately failed, it created an atmosphere that made this seem like it would go on forever. There is a bitterness in the air, probably because I live in a Red state, that will stay for a long, long time.

I am glad this is over, and pray for acceptance.

dying open

Photography and Ignorant People and other things that annoy me.


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I'll NEVER order another back-ordered item again. When it comes in, I'll still have the better deal for having ordered this, but good God! I ordered this kit on October 19th! Almost a month and a half!

I've been waiting what seems like forever to get this kit already. When I ordered it and the Rosco gels, I did so to get myself up to speed on lighting portraits, etc. The longer I wait, the more I feel depression kicking in because I'm not moving ahead, I'm standing still.

Depression has been in force lately. Because of money problems, I couldn't get the tablet I wanted; unexpected expenses happened that I wasn't prepared for. I've been working on my budgeting to combat this, but that doesn't stop the sadness now.

I also can't find a cracked copy of Photoshop CS4, which is something I'm itching to try out.

I also can't find a cracked copy of Nik Silver Efex Pro, which is something I'm itching to try out.

It's probably better that I don't have these things, since I don't have a tablet to use with them yet; it would probably only serve to frustrate me further to work with a mouse in these new tools.

The lighting problems are probably my most daunting, troublesome issues. It's something I've been wanting a practical, real world working knowledge and experience in for a long time, but all I've achieved is academic study. It's something you can watch every tutorial in the world on, but unless you have daily practice in, it never 'sticks' right.


Another thing that depresses the shit out of me:

They're so freaking classy, right? Ugh...

Westboro Baptist Church is obviously a fringe, hateful group of people. I've taken photos of them outside Fort Campbell protesting our country's soldiers, condemning them to hell because they represent a country that fights for homosexuals. Rather, they protest proclaiming how awful our soldiers are and praise their deaths because they fight for us.

These people thank God for IEDs. For dead soldiers.

Westburo Babtist Protesting

Westburo Babtist Protesting

These people dually give Christians a bad name, AND free speech a bad taste. I realize that with a right like free speech, you must take the good with the bad, but...

These people should... they...
arch hinge.


(14:21:38) Toby: this is a miracle, straight up. Obama won, I got a house and GNR is releasing an album

(14:21:53) Toby: next thing you know, people are going to start pooing rainbows